My hubby and I had decided to try again in March/April. Which is what i feel like
i need, and i know i need. but he now has different plans, or ideas, which are
waiting a year and a half, and i didnt have the guts, or anything to tell him
that, that choice breaks my heart. I really appreciate you sharing, because as
much as i know there a other people that have gone through this, i am still
thinking about how everyone but me got theirs, and is getting theirs, and i just
think its unfair. But in no way am i angry with GOD, but i just wish i knew why
he would give us our babies, and then take them away....Everything is
unexplained and that is the worst. And i feel so alone. I know that i have
people in my life that i could talk to you. But, those people haven't been
through what we have, what i have. & the ones that have been through
it i find it hard to even speak to them, because i know its a hard topic,
and i would not want to bring up memories that they may want to keep
hidden. And i understand. Even though i will talk to anyone who needs it.
But, i guess, i am just better at giving advice, then taking it...Its going to be
a long road, but for the most part i truly am doing much better than i would
have thought i would be. I have conquered so much i honestly did not know i
had/have this strength. And i also know that because of this it will only make
stronger. I can't rush it, i can't predict how i am going to feel, or be. I have to
let my feelings out. This Too Shall Pass.
My Little Angels.
The Angel Of The Book Of Life Wrote Down My Babies Birth, Then Whispered Softly As She Closed The Book - "Too Beautiful For Earth."
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